six months ago, i wrote something about the supposed to be "break up" with this guy. a month after that, we were "ok" again. without even any hint of that misunderstanding and nasty conversation we had. then i went back home. i thought everything was better then between the two of us. but then again, i was wrong! we never had a talk about what happened a month ago. he pretended that it didn't happen and all the while i let it sit at the back of my head. just not to think about it. now, it's really over! and whenever i got myself thinking what went wrong, i realized that everything was wrong from the very beginning of the relationship. not that i didn't love him but because i got into that relationship without even thinking if i was doing it for the romantic love or just the friendly platonic love?! yes, i loved him as a friend before we got involved with each other. but maybe..just maybe..i was blinded by that friendly love for him. all the while, i thou...
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10 Ways to Transform Toxic Thoughts
If you've ever felt the way anger or fear can electrify the atmosphere in a room, you'll know what Sandra Ingerman means by "toxic thoughts." The author, a family therapist and shaman practitioner, believes our thoughts and emotions transmit an invisible but palpable energy that can affect our mental and physical well-being. "Psychic punches," she writes, are as real as physical violence. Breathe Through Your Heart Breathing is one of the simplest ways to transform energy. This is an exercise you can do throughout your day: Place your hands on your heart and feel your heart moving as you breathe. This is calming, and feeds the energy of love, peace, and harmony in the world Look in a Mirror Before reacting to a challenging situation, try emoting as you watch your reflection in a mirror. No one wants to see herself acting out in a toxic way. You may feel silly, but don't let this stop you. Taking ourselves too seriously is one of the causes of negative t...
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tuesday, june23, 2009 3days to go and school is finally over...can't wait to just wake up and not think of anything to do that day...to lull myself on bed and stay there for even just another hour...not that i don't love my job...but there comes a time when my system is down and i want to just turn myself off as if i'm battery operated... many things happened these past few days and i couldn't help but ask its implications in my life...maybe, i need to step back to see the bigger picture...look at it in a different perspective...at times, i wonder why people get conscious when they age...for me, it's a sign of triumph for not all are given the chance to live longer...but then again, it's just me. oh and one more thing, i got acquainted with someone i knew few years back...it's not the normal meeting çoz we have just known each other in the cyberspace...although , i could say that he's such a pleasure to talk to and funny...but it's only now that we g...
this one goes out to the one i loved....
i woke up this morning with unbearable headache simply because i cried myself to sleep. how do i begin to retell the conversation i had yesterday with him? i don't know. i'm thinking of just forgetting all about it, like it never happened. but reality just hit me...too damn hard! is this what i want to happen in my married life? can i just take in all the insults and never talk back? until when am i going to let it all pass? the thing is...i don't even know now what i want to think about "US". should i decide now like it is "take it or leave it" segment of a show? this is my life. and i do not want to end up regretting the choices i will make now just because someone wants me to decide about something for his own peace of mind. i couldn't imagine that i reached this ripe age of 30 and still confused whether i will plunge into the bandwagon just for the sake of telling the whole world that ..."hey, i'm getting married!" of course, i w...
can't grow old with kids around...
when i realized that i will finally become a pre-school teacher, i was so excited. i find it absolutely astonishing that i will be imparting knowledge to these kids. and i see myself doing this job for a very long time... so as this logo says... Let's Play, Learn and Grow.... Together! :)
bored....
i am still not feeling well today. My menstrual cramp is killing me. And when this happens, my mood is really intolerable. As in , grabe ang sungit and couldn't explain why i keep on bugging myself about things i shouldn't. anyway, i need to go to work even if i have this "illness". My assistants just need to endure my "kasungitan" and hopefully this will end soon and not for the whole week. I've been like this since i first got my period. i dunno why, it's only me in the family but i think not only me in the entire woman world (sigh!)Whenever i have my period i have to endure the pain and the uncomfortableness. my friends keep on telling me that i should get married na. For this cramps to stop and eventually will free me from pain. hahaha...yeah right! oh well, it's time to work now. wish me luck today. hope that everything will go on smoothly as possible. Keep smiling!
exhausted....
Konnichiwa! It was a very tiring day. Everybody's running up and down, beating deadlines and making decorations for the upcoming school activity. Even i, rushed to japanese embassy to get some more stuff to put in our assigned room for the Cultural Fair. Hope that everything will be on time tomorrow so nobody's get pissed off. But amidst this hustling day, i was caught aback reading information about Japan and even reviewing my japanese language knowledge. I am always amazed about their language and even their culture. Definitely, Japan is in my list of dream destinations. And i promise myself that i will visit that country someday. Gotta go now. Great day ahead tomorrow. Dewa mata ashita.